freedom of expression

a year and a half on, i finally watched my 21st bday present

そのものは本当に存在してほしい！
かわいすぎる！！ w

april-may 2007
28 photo albums

march-may 2008
6 photo albums

..WHAT'S GOING ON??

[NB. such fascinating revelations are only made when one has massive assignments due within 24hrs. yes indeedy]

見えん
知らん
わからん

迷ってる、
将来ってこと

ずっとシドニーにいたくない
それだけ確実

シドニーって
イヤになっちゃった
かな

ただずっとここにいるのは想像できん
なんか...　進まない感じ
もう
何年間ここに働くのも想像できん
つまらなそう

香港か日本ならいい
かな

しかも
求人市場はどうやって入るのは知らん
経験ないだし

卒業したらすぐシドニーを出たい
かな

このまま、
将来わからんって
ちょっと面白いけど

やっぱ
わからんって
悩む

長い間聞いてなくて、

マレージアからシドニー空港に着くと、日本のことをまた思い出しちゃった

空港の中で写真を摂ることは禁止されるの。
やばい
二ヶ月前、写真撮っちゃった......................ｗ

二ヶ月....

90kg worth of luggage

シドニー空港に着いて、満足だった..
けど喜びとかがぜんぜん感じれなかった
何でかシドニーに帰ってうれしくなれない？
シドニーって、もう家って呼べない？！

成田か大阪に着いたら心情がどうなるか想像した
シドニーに着くよりぜんぜん喜べるだろう..

理想化してるかもしれないけど、日本にいた時は今まで一番幸せを感じられた日々。シドニーに対するの「満足」を比べたら、やっぱ足りない。
シドニーの「正常」って、「つまらない」

日本にいたとき、幸せを無くすことを怖くて、泣いた。
今は、日本にいた幸せを感じれなくて、泣いてる。

結論：　シドニーよりいたい場所がある

a week before i was due to leave, i was seriously thinking i'd much rather wish for the contingency plan (HK & Japan) to kick in. (for obvious reason)
in retrospect, M'sia was amazing - a complete eye-opening experience to a world i hadn't known.

contradiction would probably be the best description

there's the amazing contrast between the rich and poor, as well as the mix of Malay, Chinese and Indian cultures.
one minute you're in a 20smth level bar with the Petronas towers as a backdrop and a pool in the centre purely for extravagance; the next you're on a street with open drains, the calls of hawkers, surrounded by urban smog and stifling humidity. in terms of poverty, M'sia has clearly been the most rundown i'd seen - buildings in decay, beggars on the street, numerous hawkers on the sidewalk.. they even still have lottery peddlars - the nation was clearly the best equivalent of urban decay i have experienced.
there are skyscrapers forming the backdrop of mosques, which themselves may be located across the road from hindu temples, chinese temples and the like. on occasion prayers even occur simultaneously
the hospitality of store attendants, waiters, certain taxi drivers are amazing - at one point a man who had literally travelled the world was giving me pointers for my December SE Asia trip; the Malaysian brand of humour had me in stitches for half the trip; then there are the bag snatchers on motorbikes who are so quick you don't know what hit you, people who will snatch your cameras and money in clubs and bars, and the other taxi drivers who will charge you four times the price of what you should be paying

i've always thought of Australia as a multicultural society

but M'sia may be considered even more so because not only is it a melting pot of several cultures, it is one where each of the cultures are all aware and informed of the practice, values and beliefs (religious and otherwise) of the other cultures. i was amazed to hear Malays speaking Cantonese, Chinese speaking Malay, and so on.. and in spite of this racism is still rampant - these cultures coexist, yet segregation is also obvious

the place is such a confusing mess that it epitomised impressions of what a 'developing nation' should be - a haphazard mix of urban sophistication and downright poverty

fascinating could well be an understatement - i would love to visit again a few more years down the track to see how it does (or doesn't) develop.

oh and for the cheap shoes also.
and the food. (mich you should be proud of me)

imfs @ malaysia